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Embracing Change With Bipolar Disorder

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Leo Tolstoy once said, “True life is lived when tiny changes occur.” It’s one of my favorite quotes. This year, I’m choosing to live life and embrace change with bipolar disorder.

When I chose “change” as my word for this year, I didn’t really know what it would mean.

There were a few things I wanted to focus on, such as getting back in shape and writing more often in my journal, but the rest was a hazy picture.

I knew I wanted to see things improve in my life, but I never laid out a plan for how to get there.

Instead, I decided to be open to everything and embrace each opportunity as it came along.

It’s much the same way I choose puppies, which is why I avoid any sign that says “Free” on it. Too often, I take all of them.

Weeks of this year are already gone, but now I can see more of how change is going to happen.

Let me tell you about my last two weeks and embracing change with bipolar disorder.

Fighting trigger finger

One thing I’ve been dealing with for a few years is trigger finger.

Four fingers now have defied me, causing everything from stiffness to locked joints. I went nearly a year without being able to bend my right index finger.

Like a silly person, I thought trigger finger was part of getting older. I never bothered to find out if it could be treated.

Then, about two weeks ago, white hot pain jolted me awake about 2:30 one morning. The pain was like the time I slammed my hand in a car door.

My right middle finger was stuck, with the tip nearly touching my palm. While instinct told me to straighten it, the task was impossible.

For the next hour, sweat ran from my body as I fought the panic in my mind, the intense pain in my finger, and the desire to be calm and try to work the joint free.

With careful massage, my finger finally let go, but my night was over. It was time to take action.

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Talking to Doc

I have a friend who’s a chiropractor in town.

“Hey Doc,” I said to him when we ran into each other a few days later. “The other night, I woke to terrible pain in my finger. I’m sure it’s trigger finger from years of typing. Is there anything I can do?”

Turns out, my friend has special training in sports medicine.

Aha! I can finally claim my years of pounding away at keyboards as a sport! Take that, high school football players. I have a sports injury.

Doc told me to make an appointment with his office and he would work on getting me better.

Seeing improvement

I’ve known Doc for about 15 years. We live in a small town. With both of us having professional jobs, we were bound to cross paths. But in all that time, I never thought to ask if he could help me.

Since 2024 is all about embracing change with bipolar disorder, I put on my big-boy pants and did what I never do: I asked for help.

I’m far from cured, but last night was the first time in years I’ve been able to bend and straighten all the fingers on my right hand without excruciating pain.

I believed the limited insight I found online and thought my only hope for getting better would be surgery.

But then here, just a mile from where I live, is a friend who was waiting to give me relief.

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Looking for opportunities

Often in life, the solutions we’re looking for are right in front of us.

I connect with Doc often, sometimes once a week, but I never considered getting help from him. The door of opportunity was there. I drove past his office every day, but my eyes missed the opportunity.

Solutions to your problems are everywhere. I had a mental block about Doc, so I closed my mind to him being able to help me. Had I not chosen change as my word of the year, I would likely still be suffering.

Now my eyes are open, and I’m wondering how much else I’m missing.

Life is always putting answers in our path, but we don’t always recognize the gift.

It’s like the job I have now.

Switching careers

When I met my current boss, Chuck, I was working for another company. I worked in insurance, and he was a bookkeeper and tax man.

I was miserable in my job, working for an unscrupulous man. I thought there were too few options for me, so I kept going to work. Every day made me hate myself a little more.

Chuck and I were consulting about a mutual client the first time I entered his office. When I walked through the door, I joked about how his Canadian cherry wood floors were so beautiful that I needed to work there.

We both laughed, but the moment stuck with me.

A little over a year later, struggling to make a full-time living as a writer, I needed steady work. I thought back to the pretty office and the nice man I knew.

With nothing to lose, I picked up my phone and called Chuck.

Chuck’s firm wasn’t looking to hire anyone, but he was open to talking to me. It was early fall, and Chuck knew he would need help for the coming tax season, so he invited me to come talk to him.

Now, I’ve been with the firm for over five years. It wasn’t my career field, nor something I ever thought about doing, but I saw a chance. And I took it.

Learning a lesson

Here’s the point: there are opportunities everywhere for embracing change with bipolar disorder.

Sometimes they’re obvious, like the postcard you get in the mail for the doctor specializing in your specific illness.

Other times, opportunities are more vague, like the woman you meet at a networking event who casually mentions her side hustle.

There are doors everywhere you look, but you have to be willing to walk through them.

I already know change is going to show up a lot this year, and I’m excited to see what happens next.

Keep your eyes open, and you may just find the solution you’ve been looking for. Be open to change and the universe will open doors for you.

Until next time, keep fighting.

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Navigating life with bipolar disorder is no easy task. 

But what if we told you that change can be your biggest advocate? 

Learn how to embrace change, harness its strength and turn your challenges into an empowering journey. 

Ready for a change? 

Start your transformation journey now. 

Read Now.

#SpeakingBipolar #mentalhealth #mentalillness #bipolardisorder #mentalillnessawareness
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